The hopelessness of knowing you'll never be beautiful I used to feel this way. With each passing year, it would feel more and more hopeless. Eventually, I realized there was no choice and it didn’t matter if I was beautiful or not after transition, I just needed to stop living a lie. Of course, I am hoping for a miracle and that I’ll at the very least be _somewhat_ pretty or cute, but whatever level of attractiveness I do or do not achieve doesn’t change that transition is simply the right thing for me. [Read More]

Online double life I did this right in the beginning and it definitely helped me. Interacting with people as Amelia felt like a big step forward and, as I did it more, I found that just interacting as Amelia alone made me really happy. The only problem now is that I’ve got double accounts on so many sites that I still try to manage. I’m growing very tired of having to manage two identities because I’m not openly out just yet. [Read More]